In total honesty…
I don’t think that you really love me, I think that you’re in the habit of saying it. This isn’t healthy, I’ll admit to that. It hasn’t been for a while. I just haven’t been able to muster up the courage to actually go through and call it quits. But within the past week, this “relationship” has shown its true colors. When we last hung out, things were kind of awkward. Then we got into a fight that same night. I’m just over this. I need something more tangible. I don’t know much about your dating history, but I’m fairly certain that I’ve had more experience. I’ve been in relationships that work and relationships that don’t. I think that I’ve partially hung on for so long in hopes that you’d open up to me in certain ways. I mean, I guess you have. Maybe I just had unrealistic expectations. Maybe I’m a bitch for hoping you’d show me who you really are. Maybe I wasn’t being completely honest with myself from the start. But who am I kidding, I was crazy about you; Your smile, your kisses, your qualities that made you, well, YOU. But that time has ended. I still miss you. Today would have been a year. Parts of me wish that things could have gone back to the way they were. But, in reality, they happened the way they needed to. You’ll always have a piece of my heart. I can’t help that.
